So maybe I am a tad late on coming up with resolutions and goals for the new year, but hey- better late than never?
As the time between now and graduation becomes shorter and shorter, I am continuously faced with the decision of what I am going to do post-grad. It’s basically been the main question I’ve been trying to answer in the past couple of months. Every time I feel too overwhelmed thinking about it, I will just leave the question hanging in the air again and again. But these few days are the days I actually need to make a decision, because I know decisions like these aren’t just made when I want to make them. Decisions require concrete plans and actions to carry out the plans- purchasing plane tickets, arranging storage, etc. And these plans take time.
I feel like I have decided on a post-grad plan, which I will share when everything is confirmed and the details are laid out. But the main point I want to share here is not the plan itself, but the process and thoughts that led me to the decision.
Recently, some things happened and I had a couple conversations with my parents that made me come to the realization of what I want my resolution to be this year: to start putting myself, my future, and my goals first.
I have always constantly found myself too influenced by others and their plans, where I end up putting their plans before my own. I would try to fit my schedule around theirs just in hopes that we can have ‘overlap time’ to do something together. This is when all the maybes and what ifs come up, making it so much more difficult to make any decisions for myself. Maybe I should go to ___ in ___ because my friends might be there? Maybe I should keep this month free because what if ___ wants to go somewhere in ___? No one is putting their lives on hold for me (and they shouldn’t), so why am I putting my own life on hold for others?
So… yeah, bringing it back to my post-grad plans. I decided I want to make them based on what I think would be good for myself, disregarding other peoples’ plans. I need to really start thinking for myself because I want to be in control of my life.